Season’s Greetings

Hi, everyone!

I just wanted to wish everyone happy holidays and I hope you’re able to have a great season with people you enjoy. I’ll have a new  post up here shortly.


Something a Little Different

Daily Prompt for December 21st, 2013

I’ve decided that today’s blog post is going to be doing something different: I’m doing the Daily Prompt offered by the WordPress staff. (writing about family issues abound)

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Telling Others About BPD

People with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) have a long, uphill battle with stigma that can be trying, difficult, and almost impossible at times to deal with. However, while stigma is the longest battle, not many people think about the hardest battle when it comes to BPD: telling others you have it. Continue reading Telling Others About BPD

Treats Aren’t Just for Dogs

On Friday I made a post about taking care of yourself. Today I want to write about treating yourself.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve had a hard time learning how to treat myself because of all the hateful things people have told me. I frequently have the little voice inside my head that tells me you’re never good enough and it beats against my self-esteem. However, as time goes on (and my medications make me crave sweets more than usual), I’m learning how to reward myself for the little things in life.

But isn’t that bad? Shouldn’t you only reward yourself for the big accomplishments?

No. I don’t think so, anyway. Only rewarding yourself for “big” accomplishments creates the illusion that nothing you do is a big enough accomplishment, and it eventually instills a lack of self-esteem in your accomplishments.

That sounds like it can be dangerous, or put you in a bad place.

That’s why you do little rewards for little accomplishments and big rewards for big accomplishments. 

For example, you have a goal for not biting your nails for a week. At the end of a week where no nail biting happens, you buy yourself a candy bar.

Or let’s say you’ve been waiting for that big job promotion you’ve been working towards for a long time, and you finally get it. You can finally buy that new GPS system so you can take an actual vacation!

Every little action makes an impact in someone’s life.

BPD, Stigma, and How It All Comes Together

I decided to write another post for today because I’ve been curious about something to do with my Borderline Personality stuff:


Delicious, steaming stigma, waiting for you to drink it all up over and over and over again.

Stigma? What’s this stigma you’re talking about?

Apple’s Dictionary app defines stigma as “a mark of disgrace associated with a particular circumstance, quality, or person.” Stigma follows mental disorders closely because they’re not in the norm, they make people act weird without intentionally trying to be weird, and let’s face it – people can be real jerks when they want to be.

What does stigma have to do with BPD?

Stigma has a lot to do with BPD because after looking online at sources for BPD, it’s the most stigmatized mental disorder. Both the general populace and therapists stigmatize BPD patients like crazy. 

I already knew that. 


But even therapists stigmatize that much with it?

They do, and it sucks. It really, really sucks. 

Therapists primarily stigmatize it because of the black & white view that borderlines have when it comes to relationships. Therapists are wary of when a patient with borderline is going to leave his/her treatment with them, so they find people with BPD difficult to put up with. Other reasons that come up for therapists’ frustrations are the lack of having effective therapy skills to handle people with BPD, getting tested (and frustrated) with borderlines testing their limits to see if he/she can trust the therapist, and misdiagnosis. People with BPD usually have another mental disorder, such as bipolar disorder or depression that therapists decide to hone in on and treat instead. My therapist has a master’s degree in psychology and she refuses to put the BPD label on me because I don’t “act like people who have it.” She focuses on my PTSD and MDD instead.

Why does so much stigma exist against borderlines?

Again, people can be real jerks. And uneducated. The most common stereotype (from what I’ve seen) is that people with BPD are violent. People with BPD aren’t violent and are, in fact, scared and mean no harm against people. It doesn’t help that mixed media has projected this onto people. It also doesn’t help that BPD has only been classified as a mental disorder, so with only 33 years of research (BPD was classified and given a name finally right around 1980) I guess you can say that the disorder is still relatively new to the scene. 

What do I do about it, then?

Honestly, that’s up to you. You can always develop coping skills to combat negative things people might say. Build a positive support network and try to find a therapist that won’t give you muck about having the disorder. Educate those that you can about BPD because the more information that gets spread, the better. You can also do what I did and create a blog about it! The possibilities are endless. 

You are in charge of your own life. You are better than any stigma that gets put against you. Never let anyone tell you otherwise.